selamat tinggal!

for now i've decided to say goodbye. because u have become way too commercialised and i'm finding it very irritating. so till i change my mind, or something...

byebye!

heloooooo!!

hellooo everyone i'm BACK!!=D

homehomehome klklklklkl

wootwootwoot

brb

yes be right back.

totally lazy to open up this page to blog anymore..especially so close to exams..=( butbut get a twitter!!!and u can see my real time err...activities..=p there and fb i'm still hyperactive.

see u soon blog!!

everyone, take care, good luck for exams!!!<3

u know how people work faster under stress?

when im stressed, my brain refuses to move. so now. im stressed. assignment. last report. its THE report for me cos its gonna literally shape my future. n i apparently dun hv enough time to do it slowly. need to intepret alot of things..n i suck at stats. though we've already done tt..i seem to have forgotten them all..yeay.

sigh.

thank you mummy!=p

wish list 2009

http://www.forevernew.com.au/collections - yang purple colour itu..=p

and another tt's flowery and pweeety!=p

omg shopaholic alert ahhhh!!!

i always thought i'm vague when i bitch about someone/somethings. but apparently now vague enough

i dont feel happy now. and i do not know why. isit just the lack of sleep?or isit because of some other things?

tell me..someone PLEASE tell me zhong sheng da shi can mean other things? like graduation for example?

i need to feel alive. i need that country road book..=.= so i can do my assignment.

i need to start studying.

i need to finish my assignment.

so many thoughts. so many questions. shut.up.

need to be able to password protect my post so i can rant properly..haih..

see see seee!!!!

why would u guys still smoke knowing this is the what will happen to you AND your loved ones?????

Stop smoking la all of u STOP!!=(

this is my problem:

this is a grp assignment..which means? i cannot screw up.

this is a grp assignment..which means? i must finish it before i go to uni later even if i dont sleep yes.

this is a grp assignment..i hv absolutely NO IDEA wtf i'm doing yeay. so means i cannot delete my grpmates' work. because they might be important.

oh y i wanna delete anything at all? its a 3000word LIMIT assignment. i'm not even 50% done with my part and its already 500 words over the word limit.

so how now faster tell me how now...............................................

p/s: i just realised, there are more nocturnal creatures than i thought there were..1. vin was still twitting at 4ish, mizan like..dont sleep..=p vicky managed to fb comment me at my 6.40 am, and zia told me to blame it on DST and to tell them tt king kong kidnapped me..=D

who say my life boring?oh nono...=p

lallalalallallallala byebye

Herro!

today, daylight savings starts..so now we're 3 hours ahead of home *fcukthisshit* but yes, only a month and a half togo!

cant wait till home..cant wait to graduate from undergrad!!mixed feelings about where i want to go..stay in melbourne?i always complain i hate it. n i think i do..but without a car, melbourne is as good as i can go..plus its like i dont have time to try settle anything. pack, move, moving to another state?it will take time..which means my holidays will be cut by dunno how long. AND I DUN WANNA MISS CNY HELOOOO??

but after i came back from perth, i really want to go back..but will it be the same still?brother jit will be graduating d end of this yr..syg so busy..seven only will be there for half a yr..sheila going back d..luckily still got my mels..=p

melbourne, i already know it inside out. almost. still so many places i need to explore. seriously if only the weather is better. i wouldnt complain as much..=(

im gonna miss oakleigh alot if i move..i love this house minus its rodents. i love. oakleigh town. i love its convenience. i love its everything. best greek coffee. best selection of cakes - though not all very nice but i'm talking abt selection here!=p cafe opens till 1am everynight. tell me. isint it the very best for me??=p

though yes la..city got stalactites..24hr coffee..chun.

so im applying literally everywhere..i'm gonna just spend 30minutes on my UWA application tonight. set a timer and time myself. so i cant say i've wasted time. because afterall, its only 30 minutes. i just lost an hour today. so what is 3o minutes eh?

tickets back home are like. FULL. so che, i'll try to make it to gc end of the yr..otherwise i can always go after my 3 crazy exams,..then come back for my last 2..before flying home again..=)

my hse is like a farm outside - the floor is so fcuking disgusting i can cry. might clean it up tonight. cos everytime i step outside my room i feel irked. so yes. clean up!good form of gym alternative. lol

loki is so cute!=p charlie looks like simba next to loki..=p

i'm gonna miss charlie soooooo much..=( - the biggest reason on why i dun wanna move. so tt charlie can stay so tt i'll still see charlie..=(

eugene's last night here this yr!=( so fast flying back d..sien..

gonna try sth new, lets see if it works out!

for now its back to assignment..but really, i've decided to enjoy today. will do as much as i can but really, i dun really give a fcuk. cos i know tmw onwards there's no time to do shit. today's my last, and i'm gonna enjoy it as if its my last day on earth. (yea right)

been awhile since there was a non emo blog post eh?=)see?i'm improving already...hehe

perhaps its depression..

havent really laughed since i came back..but more like been *whats-tt-word* at everyone since i came back...actually not really ler..yes la so i'm more emotional..but hor..not my fault ler!those ppl really ask for it one lor!=.=" i emo i got my reasons one..i'm really not all tt big of a psychopath..

yet to find something tt melbourne has but perth dont.

the last few days back in perth was the most wonderful of this semester since everyone left back home. completely stress free, n knowing that u have ppl tt has your back, people that dont talk to u one second and bitch abt u the next...these people are what you would call, true friends. these people i hvnt seen or talked to in 2 yrs. the moment we set eyes on each other, the topics dont stop. the conversations, endless. sigh. i miss u guys.

food is always more wonderful in smaller areas. scenery so wonderful, weather so awesome. time difference to back home? zero. see? awesome in everyway.

first thing today was grp meeting. change topics. lalalala. yala faster decide what u guys wanna do only i'll start researching. apparently me n ven has NO MORE TIME TO FCUKING WASTE OK! tamadecibai

i really do miss perth. i miss my mels, i miss my syg, i miss my seven, i miss my bradder, i miss my bah..

sigh...

but its really time for me to snap back to reality and get my brain back to work. so apparently my holidays are over. assignments must be completed. i want to now be able to curl up in a friend's bed and do nth. i can only think of a few friends that i can do this with.

someone asked me. where do i have more friends. but i go with quality more than quantity.

perhaps this time i'll be disappearing for real. i just dont see the purpose in living life how i want anymore. y fight so hard for what we want? when we always end up doing what we need instead?

we've decided that something needs to be done next year. we've been nice, sacrificed for someone. and then to realise that it has gone COMPLETELY to waste. well, u've had your chanceS. we've had it. so here's goodbye.

work shall start. may your missions meet with good results. may i finish the results section of the ridiculously difficult 2nd year friggin psyc assignment.

again, i miss u guys..=(

i think i remember now what happened...i've been out for so long i forgot. i was desperate to want it back...and then...i am reminded..

fcuk this shit.

aim to finish 2 assignments by this week.

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oh you biatch!

my tutor - for my off campus unit..is RAWRRR!!!

1. she ignores u if the question u ask she cannot answer

2. ppl came out of the class blurer than when they went in

3. she has selective hearing. if she has no interest in answering u (probably because she dunno the ans) she will ignore. but if u ask sth tt she knows i suppose, no matter how back of the class u sit, u will get your answer..

and then, here's the kicker...

she gave us our results for the experiment. saying tt we are off campus students. bla. and then of cos, NATURALLY, she helped us interpret the data...AWWWWWWW

WHATEVER LA MAHAI U DUNNO THEN DUN SAY ANYTHING OK!

cos????she interpreted the data wrongly!!!niama!!!!!!!

WASTED MY FCUKING TIME OK!!??!?!??!?!? see see 300000 times STILL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW IT CAN BE...BECAUSE SHE WAS WRONG!!!fcuking hell..=.="

mahai lo!i already like dun hv enuf time she wanna come screw with us summor..diu ler!!on campus u make a mistake nevermind u know!!!!next week come back to class.. "eh class! wrong d!!this is the right one"

OFF CAMPUS???helooooo??????bitch. we see u ONCE! how can u make a mistake like this?????its a friggin 30% assignment lo!!if we fail this we fail FULL STOP LE!

cibai u. old d. DUN FCUKING TEACH LA WALAU. wanna teach? TEACH THE RIGHT STUFF LA WALAU!

so yes. i was in a dilemma. what should i do? complain straight? or how?

so i've decided to put it on the discussion board..see who else got the same shit as me. then if alot of ppl sama, then i'm gonna complain. cos there's always the chance tt i'm wrong. so yup.

see?i can never be a teacher. i believe in karma. the way i always complain abt teachers, i'll never make it pass a day.

sad..

i was about to twit this..but since it was last night I didnt want to start raya off with a negative note..but probably cant keep this in anymore..=.="

so yes, i just found it incredibly sad..that someone close to you would trust others more than they trust you..everytime i say something, it goes unnoticed. but when others say it, there you go..things start happening..like u were totally ignored. no matter what you say it goes in and right out! or maybe it didnt even go in..=.=""

is it supposed to be unfair?that i cannot do somethings but u can go ahead and do whatever you want.

some people say one thing and mean another. i wish i only see and hear what is said and not get the real meaning behind it. body languages say alot. isit something all women are gifted with? is it an "ability"(gift) or a curse?

its the time of the semester where i start feeling the pressures of LDR. time of the year that i'm so fcuking tired of everything.

i also have a keen dislike of people that refuse to try. i dislike that people have such strong opinions about something that they have absolutely NO IDEA about. it will just make u look more stupid.

u say one thing. but your actions show me something else.

it was a good night friday. may there be many more to come!

thinking of moving back to the city..but will cry when time comes to pay the rent..=s

i'm not so sure i look forward to this event as much as i say i do anymore.

to anyone who hasnt watched 15malaysia's short clips before, i say watch this. it gave me goosebumps. LOVE it.

so its time to go back to work..sighs.

sigh..=(

Waiter comes...

Waiter: Hi, what can i get you?

pig: I would like a flight ticket home please?

Waiter: Sure!How would you like it..we have a selection of airlines - SIA, MAS, AirAsia...?

pig: MAS would do thanks..

Sigh..stress..=(

got my exam timetable last night..i find that it is my most screwed up timetable in my uni life. And then I turn around and look at everyone else's? Some suck worst!Ayman has papers consecutively..peggy has 2 papers in a day, caca has 3 papers back to back..

WHAT IS THIS! isit just me or are the monash timetable makers like really sadistically fucked up?

oh ya speaking of fcuked. a fcuking robot told me to stop swearing on twitter last night. MAHAI I SWEAR MY FCUKING BUSINESS LA CIBAI! i know its supposed to be a for fun kinda shit -> i RTed it so u can actually read what the bot wrote. making me really want to change my profile to private..and then delete everyone that i do not know..=.="

technology. always a love-hate relationship...

on one bright side of exam timetables..i get to celebrate my 21st birthday exam free..=) but yes. no real celebration anyway..=(

feel like applying for an access card for the 24hr lab in Caulfield..anyone wanna apply for it too?

Something to look forward to tmw!gd food thanks!

cynicism

i was talking to a friend today..and out came many topics..politics..and life..

agreed, so my life is sucky now and definitely like a total loser wtf. and also something he said made me question myself. he said that it seems like i have no direction in life..

wow.

so true though...=( in year one. i was SURE. i was filled with aspirations..i knew exactly where i was heading in life. in year one. i had a social life. and i got good results.

and then something happened.

it is probably a mixture of many things but it led to how i am now. cynical. boring.

"there is hope for the future" what..really? "malaysia has not lost hope" what..really? "u can do something about it" *smirks* OH REALLY???

*points up* see what i mean?

so i placed a priority this year on my studies. i agree that i do not manage time well enough. yes i do procrastinate. but basically my life revolves around books, libraries, and hoyts.=.=

social life. must it revolve around VII to be called a social life? i cant enjoy clubbing anymore..again..mixture of reasons but number one its cos i cant drink anymore..so yes. clubbing sucks if u cant drink.

did uni change me to be who i am now? hopelessness..depressed..apparently this is because of uni..i think i am doing the wrong subjects...=(

what happened to the ambitious 18-19 year old me?i need a new life. a new beginning. and i can only get it after my exams this semester. at least i will only start pursuing this new life after it.

i do hate politics. i really do.

curse diffidence. i curse u.

but to end this post on a less erm blue note, here's something interesting..=)

chaddy VIP sales tmw. see u guys all there! and @aaaaalbert yea like u read this. LETS INGLORIOUS BASTERDS TMW!=D lepas tu pergi makan dan minum!jangan cakap i tak ajak dah ahhh!!=p

PA-IL

malaysia, i now give u absolute reason to disown me wtf

ok for more information on why read this: *click* because i'm pandai like tt wtf

what happened was, me n peggy was chatting online..and somehow we talked about language and somehow that got linked to her saying we know alot of languages but all "bun tong sui" aka half bucket water in canto which means not very good la like we only know stuff half way

ya so then when u wanna talk about malay, who else to ask but eileen or vicky?but my syg wasnt online so i asked vicky..

after some time figuring it out, they gave me a number of alternatives - baldi, tong blabla

then i hv ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHY but i then asked her..

is "PAIL" in malay? cos it makes sense right if u separate it out - PA-IL...hahha..

but yes, its not malay i know now..*shy*=p

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my baby girl sang me twinkle twinkle little star and ABC just now..=)) I MISS HER SO MUCH!

my baby boy played a game with me too! "who can throw the paper aeroplane the farthest.. i won of course cos i told him my paper aeroplane is now all the way in australia..=p AMEX MOO I MISS U TOOOOOO!!!

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PSY2042 fcuking difficult laaaaa...=( should never have done it off campus..

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bb is such an awesome/ problematic phone. the updates come like tt so i check my fb like tt! hence the much frequent replies on comments and updates..=p BB IS AWESOME!=D

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cant wait to go to perth!!food food food!!!=D=D

excitement

this is terrible..i find the only way that can still induce excitement in me is = shopping. doesnt matter for what the product...=(

howwwwwwwwwwwwww...cannot cannot cannot!!!=(((

i need to go for meetings soon wtf. i cannot shop anymore la!i;m damn broke!!

but but..vip sales next wednesday...hellooo!!!=p

HAPPY 22ND FCUKER!*edit*

*edit!reasons added haha*

its my ex-lygon housemate's birthday today!!!!!

i'm trying to think of 22 reasons of why we love u so much..so lets see how many i can come up with..=p

1. because he is husband material LOL

2. because he looks like a fcuker which is why we named him fcuker..

3. because he is my ex housemate

4. because he is a camwhoring genius (reminds me sooo much of beginning 2007 when he n daryl had a camwhoring championship LOL)

5. because he can cook wtf

remember the days where we would knock on each others' doors and ask each other "so what to defrost tonight?" and then call each others homes to ask how to cook!!

<3

6. because he can camwhore..capturing a maximum so far of 12 ppl!

but i cant find tt picture so this will do..=p

6. because u're a kambing wtf (yala see i'm running out of reasons d n i'm only at number 6!!)

7. because u look lansi, u walk lansi, but actually one of the best people i know..=))

8. because u're a slut!

9. just because u're eugene..

<3

and since i have run out of pictures of u to put up..=( (yes i used to have more but all of them has disappeared in my 2 previous blogs that have disappeared..=((((

so i owe u 22-9 reasons and will give them to u when i'm drunk enough!hahaha

cant wait till u're here again fcuker!!=D

i misssssss u!!!!!!!!!

Have a great birthday and dun get too wasted!!!=p

surrounded by shit

karma bites back hard..doesnt it?

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just got an email from deakin letting me know they have received my application..just need to wait and see what happens..

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perth perth perth!!!

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2 weeks eugene comes home!!=D

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i wanna watch movieeeeeeeeeeee - funny people and i wanna watch inglorious basterds againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

observations

i just spent the ENTIRE day, reading ONE journal..FMLFML

i wonder..if its possible that i can make decisions about what i do, how i wanna do it, and when i wanna do it, without prior consent? what happened today..if it was me, i could never have done it..its like as if i need permission on how i wanna live my own fcuking life. and its not big decisions...just simple mundane shit. y ah?=.="

i really do hope my cousins and family are ok..=(

u know how some people are just so contradictory?a perfect example would be someone digging his or her nose and then looking at u while doing it and say "i'm not digging my nose!" wtf. irritated the fuck out of me.

what are my priorities?i called my grandmas yesterday..nena was telling me how happy she is to hear from me..and it made me realise..i NEVER call back..=( i have to make it a point to call home more often...at least 2 times a week. i mean. how difficult can it be? apparently i speak to justin lee everyday. so y cant i do that with someone actually blood related? ada foo u suck.

my whole house smells like chloe now..=))my housemate just got herself a new perfume..=))me like!

today charlie went to boarding to spend the night..we have a house inspection tmw hence the overnight stay..i went out to buy coffee and when i came back i was so prepared to quickly close the door behind me incase charlie runs out again...

and then i realised charlie's not home...i surprisingly miss him...charlie boy!!!!!!!!!

wow i'm back!blogging everyday..haha

melbourne weather is driving me nuts. spring?suck my balls (only i dont have them)

i hv no more money!rawrrrr..vip sales next week...RAWRRRRR

i need to lose weight fat ass flabby arms RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

tiesto tour melbourne next yr february...pls. go. malaysia. and while i'm still there thnx!

so i think i should start my assignment now..again yes. boo. byebye

=)

got my first assignment of the sem back...for those who reads this more often may remember that i said i screwed my first 2 management assignments up..or u could just click *this* haha

anyway, i got tt assignment back today..=)

i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO surprised!!when my tutor scott gve it back to me i didnt open it up..i was so sure i failed it..it wasnt good work to begin with..and then i even handed it in late!!!=s=s but my tutor didnt take anything off of it!=D=D

okla i know i'm acting like all proud and shit like i got HD and results?just a bloody credit..=p but but!!its 2 steps above what i thought i would get!!=p thank you scott.thank you!!!

anyway,,,,,,i realllllllyyyy wanna cut my hair..=p its long and heavy so i have very FLAT hair everyday..=.=" so i wanna cut it SHORT again!but like abit mm se dak..finally my hair is growing longgggerrrrrr....and snip..hmmmmm...to cut or not to cut??

what u think what u guys think?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZILING!!!

its the big 2-0!!time pass so fast..i still remember me telling u to enjoy your last teen yr.*gasps*=p n now u're a big girl already!!=D hope u have a good one!!!

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on a completely unrelated note, i just spent 20bucks today to buy my transcript...=(

nah there u have it..my life's work...

dunno if anyone can see but yea..i'm just a p-c student..nothing to be proud of..despite me sleeping in the fcuking library..this is still the best work i am able to produce..=( sigh..but i guess at least i can look my mum in the eye and say i've tried my best..sigh....

if u can see...=p i actually scored a "0"..ZERO..nada..lol! my FIRST ever zero in my life!and i had to choose to do it in my tertiary education..haha..=.="

something terrible happened yesterday..=( my condolences..=( i wish i could be back now to give u guys all a big hug..=(

i have a presentation tmw. i HATE fcuking fcuking HATE presentations..=( FMLFML

i feel so alone..=(

september:

i am gonna have to eat my own shit everyday...=S

i just checked my netbank last night and got a very rude shock..i exceeded my budget by 600 bucks!!!!!i hv no idea how the fcuk i did it but i did..i didnt shop alll tt much also ma..=( sien..=(

how m i gonna survive now la..going perth summor..gonna have to call my mum already..=( sien..=(( how did tt happen???=((((

so yes..this month?drink less coffee and eat more maggi!=.="

back to work and BB IS THE BOMB!=D but iphone is still awesome..sorry i just cant pick a side!!=p

realisation..IM SO FCUKED!

This is officially one of the weirdest semesters in my uni life..

1. i practically sleep in the library now..morning classes (i admit i do not go for each and every one of them BUT i do go to some) and i already forgot how it feels like to open my house front door when there is still sunlight..no exaggeration here i promise

2. i feel as though i JUST got back into the uni life..its the end of week 7!after what..3 assignments?2-3 tests?now only i'm really aware of what is going on..

3. so aware..that i just realised that i have not done ANY chinese homeworks..thinking that they are not assessed, i just found out that they (might) be..i'm not sure if its referring to homeworks but yea..10%!!ITS THE END OF WEEK 7!omg i'm screwed..

its like i feel like i'm working my ass off cos i havent had a free day for so long already!=( today was the first time i felt like i'm slightly free..and thats cos i skipped 2 classes today because i just finished my assignment 8am this morning..

but at the same time, i feel so lazy..look at my chinese omg..=.="

for once, i'm really actually quite scared..=s and i know my tutor doesnt like me..=( sob

i have a chinese test tmw..didnt really study harhar

i need to start my research thing soon

i have to do my other assignments soon too

omg when will all these stop????

i keep finding myself detesting uni. wondering why the fuck am i putting myself thru another 3-7 years of uni. WHY. and i keep thinking now. is it worth it? no social life. ZERO SOCIAL LIFE! and ivan teoh wouldnt stop reminding me of it..=( when i said its friday coming then he said "so what not like we'll see u.." which is so true..sob..=( solli lo solli..=(((

so no social life? in exchange for a possibly better score in uni. not like i'm getting the better score..=( i think i screwed both my management assignments up sigh

week 7 is over already..tmw dinner with michelle cos i ffk her 30000million times already *showeeee!!=p=p*

week 8 next week. i need a break la walau so i can get my shit together!!=(((

herro

welcome to my new blog..

cos i'm an idiot. and apparently there's no way to revive my previous blog and because its also apparently impossible to use back the same address, here my new blog. will work on making it all pretty when i have the time..=(

R.I.P. dadafoo.blogspot.com..*click*